Friday, July 31, 2009
# - 9:41 PM
Hello, just a short note. I think i've already mentioned that there shouldn't be any flaming on my tagboard. I will not tolerate being the owner of a warring blog. That person who imitated Daniel, please stop. By the way, I'm quite sure of who you are. And Marcus, that wasn't very nice of you wasn't it.
#The right to speak - 8:56 PM
"EGAN PUT THE FOOD COVER BACK!!!"
-the door is closed, doing work-
"EGAN PUT THE FOOD COVER BACK!!!"
"Excuse me, I didn't hear you the first time. Can you speak nicely please?"
"Can't you hear well enough?? It's dinner time, and you should jolly well know when to come out and help! You can't even do such a simple thing properly!
(Dishes some chicken out. The chicken is uncooked)
"(mutters) Tsk, cannot even steam a chicken properly"
"What did you say?? What did you say?!? Why don't you cook the chicken yourself then!!"
"Actually, I cooked a chicken during last year's chri-"
"If you're looking for the perfect mother, Egan, go ahead! You either live with us, or you move out! If you think i'm rude, if you think I can't explain nicely-"
"Well considering the fact that you just blatantly-" (shouted at me to put the food cover back on top of the fridge, twice. Your evidence highly substantialises your point.)
"SHUT UP! All you know how to do is answer back. When I answered back to my parents last time, I got two tight slaps!"
(Father intervenes)
"Ya, I had to kneel down in front of them an soja them (beg for forgiveness). Say sorry to your mother now!"
"Sorry mother"
"STAND UP! LOOK HER IN THE EYES AND SAY IT PROPERLY"
(Standing up and looking at her) "Sorry mother"
"NOT LIKE THAT LA COME ON. I CAN'T FEEL IT YOU KNOW."
"Orh"
"ANSWER SOME MORE?? You're still a child you know, Egan, you have absolutely no right to answer back to your parents."
"Even if I want to present some rational ideas?"
"YES. We have been trying to tell you this for a long time, we've been trying to tell you this. You never want to admit you're wrong. You always think you're right!!"
(To mother) "Okay don't cry. Egan, priority always goes to your elders, no matter what!!"
"Today, after work, I went to the adoration room and prayed for 15 mins"
-Thumbs up sign-
"Don't make like that Egan, this is what we mean by smart aleck answers! It's all rude and insulting gestures. Tomorrow, after you say sorry to your mother, you better go to the adoration room to pray to God, to meditate!"
"So consumed in your work. We send you for an education, and you only know how to answer back. I was not a good daughter, and you don't want to become a good son to us?"
"You talk so nicely to your friends, why do you speak like that to us?"
"Because their nice to me"
"You still want to answer some more!!? (Tries to slap Egan) AREN'T WE NICE ENOUGH TO YOU?-"
"You're in such a good school, and you know-"
"If you think that i'm so rude to you, then tell me! Tell me when I have ever been rude to you!!!"
"Egan, I've had a very long and tiring day at work..."
(Grandmother comes out of room)
"(In cantonese) Mum, don't speak up for him! Don't interfere!!"
"Nothing to say already right. Last night, when you finished eating the chilli, you just went off, thinking that someone would throw it away for you"
"I went to wash my hands"
"Keep quiet Egan, just keep quiet"
Complete and unabridged by Egan Chan.
I won't even bother adding in what I think now, that'd have to be some other time.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
#The right to vote - 8:38 PM
93 273 2937663. 9355, 6659 7663 63 87. Hi Creshelle (:
I'm an irresponsible voter who deserves to die.
I betrayed myself and I wasted my thoughts, my words, my time, my energy, everything.
Everything that I had planned from the very beginning.
What if you get in? Will council be turned into some boring crap?
What about you? Are you even fit to be in council?
Or you? SC will stand for Student Clique, most best.
But more importantly, what about you?
I have nothing to say. Not to you, to myself.
And you ask me. Why do you even bother? Why do you care if SC crumbles and dies? Why do you stay up till 4.30am to do bloody EAS day videos?
It's an indescribable feeling. (Or maybe i'm just not good at words) But it's a good feeling.
It's because... I care? I WANT to serve? To lead, i don't know if i'm there yet. I've finally deciphered the meaning behind our school motto. Yay me.
I'm an irresponsible voter who deserves to die.
Plus, I'm all screwed up inside.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
# - 9:40 PM
Hello, it's (finally) another post! :D
I'm not going to talk about how tiring and how hopeless this week was, because I know that it'll only get even more tiring and i'll be even more hopeless as even more weeks go by.
3F helps loads though (I mean loads and loads). I'm such a random person I should sign up for twitter. Wait, I already have twitter.
We get through tests and (no, not mugging, 3F doesn't mug 8D), overdue homework together, but most importantly we get through the GONG together! For all who only know Gong as a percussion instrument which gives off a resounding noise, please don't misunderstand me, because I am not talking about that here. Don't insult it, please.
My class sees it every single day, and I have concluded many things about it. Firstly, the Gong is EXTREMELY POLITE! It is very caring, and is always willing to help you if you forget your notes. It is also EXTREMELY INTELLIGENT! Other than it (i'm just going to call it, it, now as it's more befitting) superior knowledge of its teaching subject, it can also store many pieces of information in it's brain. But ultimately, when you do something wrong, it shows many acts of kindness and expressions of forgiveness toward you, such as flinging certain objects at you. :D
Okay enough of flaming. This has been going on for half a year now, and I don't have a particular avenue to release this inside me. There :D
I'm dying at tests. Numbah one, I can forget about passing my polynomials test. Only those 3M muggahs (:D) are able to say "oh. huh? okay what. Can one la." while everyone else goes something like "AH DIE ALREADY LA SHUT UP AHH DON'T TALK TO ME I'M BUSY KILLING MYSELF, TALK TO YOU LATER, EH WAIT I'LL BE DEAD." Yeah.
Numbah 2, Macbeth test is GG. I put 'J' as my first answer, when everyone knows that it's the wrong answer -cries- Quotes were okay, and OH YA YZ YOU CHEATER! :O
Numbah 3, 统一测验 next tuesday. Enough said.
Exco interview was phail.
Reached about 15mins before my stipulated time and realised that everything was pushed back. So I waited outside the room with Ada, Sheena, VivToh, Padilla, Shanisca. Talked about stuff which they may ask us, and practically reflected on our entire council life. Our very conversation could say it all. Everyone's been through so much together, that we could relate to every single thing the other said. It just made me feel... old? Weird. Come on, I haven't even turned 15! ): We just talked and talked, Ada went it nervously, Ada came out even more nervously -.-
Then I decided to be very smart and instead of just waiting at the bench, I stood directly outside the door. Sara came to open the door, then she instantly saw me and started laughing like siao. Then I walked in and everyone was laughing and I was like o_o and they continued laughing and Mrs Low accused me of 偷听-ing and i was like "sorry". Then they became dead serious.
The interview felt as though I was in another world. It felt so surreal. For starters, the stupid room was like some kind of interrogation centre. Nicole was staring at me intently. I stared back at her intently. Mr Yeo and Ms Chua were laughing at some laptop. Su Bin was spamming questions. Sara was typing like -clikclikclikclikclikclikclikclikclikclikclik- Shu Qi and Joyce were looking tired. All the people on my right were shrouded in darkness so I couldn't see them.
There I was, my physical self right there, but my mind, it was wandering everywhere, or rather, everyWHEN. It was racing to recall some scruples of the events i took part in, bits and pieces of prepared information (haha) and whatnot. It went so fast. My mind's throttle was stuck in slo-mo. I had to think for at least 5 seconds for each question asked.
Nicole stared even more intently. I looked down.
Then I went off to (try) answering their questions. I think that's why i'm phail-ing at lit. I can't answer to the point dammit. Sorry for wasting your time D: Btw, the others outside told me I took 1/2 an hour. I'm still in denial.
So that pretty much sums up my week. DHS library is very awesome siriusly. Sorry, HarryPotter is on now, and I'm supposed to be watching it :D EH SUPPOSED TO GO WATCH HALF-BLOOD PRINCE TODAY!!! D: But no. Get well soon Aeri! Haha (8 :D)
The amazing sunset I saw yesterday. THE SKY IS AS PINK AS A SPECTRUM TEE! :O :O :O
I always end a post, knowing that I missed out something.
This time isn't an exception.
Friday, July 10, 2009
#7/11 it's a blog and more! - 11:33 PM
Hey all :D
Ok i've finally come back to blogging after erm, let me count, 11 months of bereavement.
Anyway, the past is past isn't it? So let's start afresh. At the stroke of midnight, 11/7/2009
Welcome to my blog (this is NOT cliche at all you know!?), where there'll be snippets of my life, pasted in here like a little scrapbook. I've decided to not be a senseless person (as how I portray myself to some in reality) here, but instead, I'll try to make this place as meaningful as possible, for everyone who bothers to come here - but most importantly, this is my space right? (:
BUT OF COURSE, what's a blog without the 'B' for ballistic?? This will also be a place for me to destress and scream and shout, which i can't really do in real life can't I? So bear with me, when I talk about seemingly senseless things which you totally can't relate to, so for that, I'm sorry.
This is a really boring skin, don't you agree? I'm really tired from IDMI and related shiz, so i'm way too lazy to get a skin now. SPEAKING OF IDMI. WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IDMI IS OVAHHH! 8D 8D 8D Interstingly, this year's IDMI went really well. For me at least, haha! We did everything from scratch in 3 days. Which I think is absolutely unbelievable if I wasn't experiencing it. The sleepless nights and blood and sweat and tears and shit all paid off YAY! Okay I can't be bothered to type in colours and all, so bear with black and white for now ):
(Insert random thought)
I realised that I have been a lazy - no wait, lazy doesn't even BEGIN to describe me. I was downright indolent and slothful. I haven't touched a single book since the start of the year, besides The Crucible, CCC, Macbeth, 刘墉 book and Romeo and Juliet. I counted, and guess what I have 12 books waiting on my bookshelf for me to be read.
Oh right, one more point to note: The reason why I sound like a Sarah Choy (Haha, if you happen to read this) is because I realised (FINALLY WHOA) my grades are abysmal and if I have an ounce of hope that I can get at least a GPA 3.6 is that if I slog my butt out. And this time I really mean it. So i'm sorry Vivienne (Hi new seating partner) if I dao you like crazy in class, because I can't go on doing all the stupid things before. It doesn't mean i'll become a boring mugger (oops), but I'll just be less... crazy? weird? extreme? I don't know. I just felt really really good in the library today, doing chem (yea chem) and revising polynomials (yea polynomials). Weird right. For Egan. Weird Egan.
I should think that the F-ers (for those who don't know, I'm in 3F -_-) would be the first ones setting their eyes upon this lousy excuse of a blog, so HI PEOPLE! (waves fanatically) :D
It's 12, and I should be going to sleep soon hmm. Goodnight then x)
